synergy

Holding Steady

The week is uneventful, which is good. K returned from her business trip on Tuesday evening. She was buzzing quite a bit, but managed to settle down. Our blood sugar crashed, so we had a miserable time figuring out what to do about dinner. We even had agreed to go out, but we were exhausted to the point of not being able to decide on a restaurant. In the end, we made it and managed to eat, even if the meal did include fried mozzarella sticks. Yum!

K wanted to stay home on Wednesday, but I was concerned because she hadn't cleared it with her manager. We managed to talk about in calmly in the morning (these discussions usually lead to blow out fights and tears) and K decided to go in. Even though she's so tired today and yesterday that she can't think straight, she still made it to the office. Her goal is to take her day off tomorrow and recover, while I head into the office.

I've been exceptionally tired this week. Not sure why. My explanation is that I'm starting to worry a bit less about K. Slowly, I believe that she'll be okay and the job will work out. In the past, when I've come off long bouts (weeks or months) of worrying and stress, I crash. My crash takes two forms--1) I am exhausted and can't function. 2) I have terrible stomach pains for about a month. When I say terrible, when they hit, I go to bed. Lying down for a while or sleeping helps my system relax and they go away, but I can't continue to function with them. The first of those pains struck me this week. I'm expecting it to continue for the next several weeks.

K wants me to go to the doctor for my stomach. She's worried there is something wrong. I've been to my internist so many times with this complaint that he refuses to see me any further and wants me to go see a GI specialist. I've resisted for 2 years, because I know that the tests will be miserable and I truly believe the condition is stress related. But I'll probably give in soon and look for a good GI specialist to help me out, mainly because K gives in to pressure from me when I believe she ought to see the doctor.

I don't think K was thrilled with me last night. As she was getting ready for bed, I told her that I wanted her to take a cab to work this morning. She dislikes changes to her routine. But I had a breakfast business meeting and the timing was such that it didn't work to take her. I was also able to scrounge an extra hour of sleep, which made me feel much better than I have over the past few days. She survived and made it to the office without my assistance.

As I said, things are good. K's performing, despite the exhaustion. I'm doing fine despite the stomach. Our biggest thing lately is that we've gone out to eat or gotten carryout quite a bit recently. It's our fallback when we're too tired to cook. I'm hoping that we'll mend our ways soon and get back to the cooking routine.

posted by synergy @ 1:16 PM